Patience
Saturday- I realized, the I am definitely NOT the most patient person in the world. I’ve already flipped out a few times over simple things. First, I tried just to walk away, and listen to some music in my room, then when that didn’t calm me down, I went for a subtle bike ride. I tried so hard, to keep myself calm, and patient. But when it comes to my 9 year old brother… I don’t think the Pope would have enough patience.
Monday- We went to look at houses in Newport today. It was going good, we found a good place, and mom was saying how good it was going to be. I was doing good with my patience, no siblings around to fight with, and everything started to look up.
Tuesday- The ability to endure delay, trouble, pain or hardship. I definitely don’t have the ability to be patient. At all. I tried listening to music, I tried going for a walk, I tried sitting with the horse in the barn. Nothing worked. I was grumpy, crabby, snippy, and I had no patience for anyone or anything.
Wednesday- I think I switch back and forth. Patience to no patience, to patience again. I was up at camp last night and all day today. I think its something about the fresh air, and not being around town and people. I was able to have my time, to think, and be patient with myself, and those around me.
Thursday- Wahoo! Two days in a row of good patience. I even was able to carry my patience from camp, all the way home, and through out the day.
Friday- AHH! My brother is definitely a test to my patience. I have already locked myself in my room about 3 times today, and its not even 9 pm! So far I’ve already threatened to throw him down the stairs. He wouldn’t stop mouthing off to me. And I wanted to flip out on him. I walked away, and tried to focus on myself, and what I wanted to get out of this virtue thing.
I chose to practice patience, because I am not a very patient person, and I have to work on waiting, and having somewhat of an ability to deal with older kids with some patience would be good. I want to find out, that by practicing this virtue, if I will come out a more calm, patient person. Patience- The capacity of enduring hardship or inconvenience without complaint. Even though Ben didn’t practice the virtue of patience, he must have had quite a bit of patience in order to deal with all the virtue practicing. I plan on taking each day, one at a time, and paying special attention to my virtue. I’m going to try and focus as much as possible, without being to dramatic with it. My plan is to try and keep track of what I am doing, and what I can be doing better.
Overall, I think I could of done much better on my virtue practice. I don’t think I was as focused as I could have been and I’m going to continue working on this specific one, and it will hopefully make me a better friend and person.